Expression Demanded

Why won’t you simply quit?

"Love demands expression. It will not stay still, stay silent, be good, be modest, be seen and not heard, no. It will break out in tongues of praise, the high not that smashes the glass and spills the liquid."

You should know better than me why is it I haven’t give up on you yet. Or is it on me??? After all it is your favourite book I’m quoting. The one you gave me, remember?

‘Sweet words (…), it will melt your little heart’, you said. Yes, I loved every word in the book. I was reading it and it was your voice I was listening to telling me those words. I was reading it and it were your hands I felt reading my body.

Give me a sign. I’m trying very hard on you. Or is it on me??? Give me the smallest of nods. I don’t want to let it go just yet. How will I know you gave me a nod if I can’t see you? I will. I will know. I will feel it. Or at least I will be waiting for it, and keep on writing until.

There’s a song that goes…

Your smile is the warning I need from you to live.

And you have the most beautiful of smiles. You have the smile that lights my heart. Your smile always makes me smile. I’m smiling now. I have your picture at my desk, in front of me. You are smiling. Always. And I’m smiling as well. I can never get tired of looking at you.

Can you feel me when I look at your picture, and smile to you?

Does my smile reach you through wind or thoughts?

Do you ever remember me?

Do you ever think of me?

Do you ever remember us?

How beautiful we were?

Do you ever wonder?

Do you ever wish?

Do you ever hope?

Do you ever believe?

Do you ever miss me?

Do you ever miss the smile you said you would miss?

My smile.

I miss yours.

And all the rest of you.

And I do wish, hope and believe.

For how long?

Time.

What is time when you are not here with me?

What is time when I am not in your arms?

What was time when I was?

What will time be would I ever again.

Be.

In your arms.

In your smile.